Monday, September 20, 2010
My Dearest Daughter
I'm writing this letter to you today because I need you to know something.
I LOVE you very much. I love you more than I've ever loved anything in my entire life. I didn't know it was possible to love anyone or anything as much as I love you.
I love the way you say my name. I love the way you laugh. I love the way your hair curls in the back. I love the hugs that you give. I love the kisses that you give. I love your soft voice. And the way you carry bags around like a purse. I love your curiosity and always wanting to make things work the same way the big people do.
I am your mom. God saw fit to give you to me. I'm so excited for all the things God is going to do in our lives together; the things that you'll teach me, the things that I'll teach you, the things we'll learn together.
I do not have a manual for how to be your mom. I'm winging it. Because of that reason, I may screw up. I may yell at you for something you didn't do. I may ignore you when you really need to talk to me. I may give you bad advice. I may respond poorly to you when I am angry. I can't watch you every second and you will get boo-boos.
But please know, that even though I am not perfect, I still love you. Nothing will change that. Nothing you can say or do will make me love you any less. Nothing I will do will be because I don't love you. I cannot promise that you will never get hurt ... but I promise that I will ALWAYS be here for you.
I will ALWAYS have a lap for you to sit in and cuddle. I will ALWAYS have kisses to give you. And I will ALWAYS pray for you and with you.
Audrey Grace ... you are my beautiful daughter and I thank God that I have you in my life.